for tomorrow

would you please,
move on?

would you please,
say goodbye to yesterday?

would you,
be brave?
just move on....for tomorrow.

playground

I miss playground. A place that i love to go, when i am still a child. I do remember, i only in love with the swings, and still, applicable now. In love with the feel of swinging, to and fro. In love with...flying high...

I miss playground. Miss the pair of hand who pushed me forward, who support me to surpass myself, when i felt down in my life.

Never Regret

i got this question from one of my mates...do you ever have a regret in life? if yes, what is the biggest regret? if you have an option, eg if time could turn back...what will you do to rectify the regret...

well, i didnt answer this when i get the question..i caught into silence...honestly, they are too much of regret in life. It always come into my mind after an incident, or when i do my self reflection...i did asked myself, what will the situation changes if i didnt react in they way i reacted...i always tell myself, well, calm down and you should settle it in another way when it happens again...and, sometimes i failed to recall, what i supposed to act...

hmm, time to grew up and learn from the experience...makes the regret an experience, as time couldnt turn back :)

Why do we do what we do?

i am doing my revision just do, and a sentence come across my mind. "Why do we do what we do?" Seriously in doubt...who ever question himself, what he is doing and why he needs to do this.

Honestly, i don't as my life path seems to be so normal and nobody will question me, except myself. If i am to ask myself this question, the answer is definitely...i dunno.

Guess it's time to sort out the answer for this question...

Cameron Highland 17-18042010

It's a long awaiting annual trip with my dearest society mates...i love you guys :)

the boh tea plantation...one of the visitor spot in cameron highland...breath in the smell of tea plantation...and relax your mind after long working week :)

you might not know that, this is part of the boh tea plantation as well...behind the garden view :)

it's rose valley...another attraction of cameron highland...it's a garden with lots of flower and cactus...a simple theory to remember is..no plucking :)

a photo shoot to proof that, we completed 80% of the journey :)

do you still remember, the college days we spend together...it's a piece of precious memory that we share, and we will not forget for life, although we do not gather as frequent as previous...

an item in the to-do list is...strawberry...fyi...there is a strawberry farm in cameron, where you can pluck your strawberry, with a price paid for it...well, i didnt go for it...but we grab some strawberries from the night market...

Hurt

It hurts, when you care. This statement is extremely hurt, especially when someone you believe, you trust, and you care did something which is wrong to you.

I have no intention, but its my intuition who makes me browse his blog. I read the latest entries of him, one of my mate in my UK gang, hmm...i should say, used to be. It is so hurt when I read the following words "Lost control on self control...do everything with my own preference without thinking others feeling especially dear...joined wrong ppl with no good examples....".

Mate, what do you mean by joining wrong people with no good examples? You are the one who opt to hang around with us, and enjoy every single second of joys and cheers with us. You are the one who make the judgement and decision. So, who are you blaming for? Yourself or us? Why do you sounds as if we are the one, who have control on your life in UK, leading you to the black hole?

Mate, it is so hurt when you decided to delete us from your contact list ever since you step into Malaysia. Anyway, we aceept it and respect you as this is your decision. We understand that you have your own life. But, why is there a second time? What are the term "friend" in your life? I am so sorry to say tat, but I doubt your definition, seriously...

the days

It has been few months, where I didn't serve myself a proper breakfast...or a proper brunch...Out of sudden, I miss the days...

where I settle my brunch with two slice of breads, an egg, two finger of fillets, and a cup of milk or milo...

or the days, i cook spaghetti as my brunch...with some bake cheesy potatoes ;P
hmm...wonder, when is the next time, I will step into kitchen and serve myself...a proper meal ;p

The Wolfman

Finally, I have a chance to watch a movie during my CNY break. Thanks buddy for the company...and for the non horror movie, The Wolfman. I am not a big fans of horror movie, but I always wanted to watch this, since my first visit to Chatsworth House. The reason being is as simple as, the movie is shoot at Chatsworth House :)

Friends who been there with me, guess you remember the lovely garden ;) It's not a highly promoted movie, but guess you should watch once, to recall the lovely memory in Chatsworth House...and experience the horror part of the peaceful garden :P

Well, what's about The Wolfman? It's a story of Lawrence Talbot, which returned to his family estate after his brother vanishes. He reunited with his estranged father and sets out to find the truth of his brother incident...and soon discovers a horrifying destiny for himself...He finds that something with strength and insatiable bloodlush has been killing the villages. The investigation has started with the join of a suspicious inspector, Mr Aberline...

The waffle day

a free and relax saturday...

and i decided to bake waffle as my breakfast
i am loving it :)

freshly bake...looks nice?
yummy when it goes with honey :)

here's the recipe for the lovely waffle...
140gram of flour
1 egg
1 cup of milk
2 tbsp of melted butter
1 1/2 of baking powder
pinch of salt
1 tsp of sugar

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something creative...something healthy (well, this might be 18sx, but its not porn :)

The show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why.

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop.
Cos it's too much, yeh it's a lot
To be something I'm not.

I'm a fool, out of luck
Cos I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I got to let it go
And just enjoy the show.

The sun is hot, in the sky
Just like a giant spotlight.
The people follow a sign and syncronize in time.
It's a joke, nobody knows
They got a ticket to the show

Yeh I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I got to let it go
And just enjoy the show oh oh oh oh oh.

Just enjoy the show oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Dum de dum, duh dum de dum just enjoy the show

I want my money back

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falling in love with this song,
a little girl, who lost herself in the maze of life
trying to find her way out,
but noted that there is no a "right" path to follow,
so, she decided to give up...
and just enjoy,
whatever she has now...

2010

it's 2010...

a number, to proof that time flies...

i am still not use to 2010...

not use to name 2009 as "last year"

well, we have no choice but to accept the fact that

2009 is a past

time to welcome 2010

time for self reflection

time for new year resolution

time for grow up...

smile

do you still remember,
the last time...
you smile,
you laugh,
from the bottom of your heart?
it might be ancient memory
but
friends,
a smile
could mean a lots to others
so,
do not forget to give a smiley face,
to the person surrounding you
no matter how tired you are.

cheers your life...

~joo~

The farewell party

I never know how a farewell party in universities looks like as I never attended one, until I have the opportunity to participate it in UK. Lot of my friends decided not to attend it as the exam is approaching and they do not see the mean of attending it. However, I still attend it with a small group of friend. Well, we still have fun at the party.

It is a surprise when we found that the farewell party is hell at the Penine Hall, which is one of the lecture halls in SHU. We have our sit and started photograph session on ourselves. This is so called “syok sendiri” and what we used to do when we are bored.

Mr Andrew is the host of the day. A video clip about international student for the summer course is presented it’s a flash back of memory which valuable to us. The party is then followed by speech of the college representative.

At the last part of the party, light refreshment is served. We manage to tried lots of sandwiches provided. The most delicious one will be the sandwich wrap. I doesn’t know what is the actual name but it is delicious... yummy :P

A small thing that surprise my day was the award giving session. I won the blogging competition and received an ipod shuffle as my gift. Feel great for that. And to someone, I will take your words that you changed your perception towards me. :P You will never have the chance to blame me for blogging anymore.

cheers.

the end...

it's the end of summer course...the end of europe trip...

going to catch my flight in another 12 hours...

and get back to malaysia, my country of birth

it's a mixture of feeling

the excitement of return and meeting my family members

but losing the mates who shared the whole summer with me

honestly, i miss them

and each single hour we spend together

we are so closed to each others in UK

but things changed...

with the end of summer course,

at the moment we return our flat key

i can't imagine how the friendship turns in after we leave UK

will it stay strong and firm...

or it turns to an end with the end of summer...

mates, i miss you guys...

the time we study, we travel, we cook, we sing, we dance...

i going to leave this country

without you guys with me...

back to the country i belongs to

and back to reality...

Donation @ British Heart Foundation

Summer course had comes to an end and everyone is packing their stuff. If you have any unwanted items which are in good quality, you may donated it. Just get a bag from the British Heart Foundation located at The Moor. British Heart Foundation is a charity organisation which helps to beat the heart disease.

A little action to donates may save a life...

Local Friends Scheme

I had registered myself with the Local Friends Scheme once I know about the program organised by the University. Personally, I found it as a good chance to know more about the local peoples in Sheffield, about the culture and living.

It was a surprise when I received the college email confirming my attendance of the program. I am so excited and could not wait to meet up with my host, Ms Beth Goldsmith. However, it turns into worries while we wait at the entrance of Blackwell. Joanne and me was thinking, how are they going to recognise us. Should we rang them up? We saw a lady walking towards us while we are in confusion. And so, we met up with our host, Ms Beth.

the lamp hanging in the living room :)

a cosy house

We visited her house and have a nice english tea-time. She introduced us on what is a proper english tea. They used to have a cup of coffee/ tea/ juice, sandwiches, cakes, scones, and chips as they tea. We shared the living culture and style of English people and Malaysian. A surprise is that their main family activity is to camping. Erm, I only go to camp with my friends in Malaysia.

Later on, Goldsmith families brought us to the Sheffield Museum. I do not noticed that there is a Museum in Sheffield until I been there. They told us about the history of Sheffield. It was a city which famous with steel. The steelworks were a key target for German bombers. It was bombed in year 1940 and it damages the city. Beth told me that Sheffield has been a very dirty city due to the steelwork, however it turns into one of the greenest cities in Europe. Thanks for the hardwork of peoples over million of years.

Besides the World War II, Sheffield gone through flood in 1864. It sweep off the north west part of sheffield and destroyed 100 buildings, 400 homes and killed 240 peoples in 40 minutes.

Beth asked me a question during the visit to museum. "Do you know where is the Jelly Babies was made?" I shaked my head and she told me it was first made in Sheffield by Cadbury Schweppers Plc. So guys, please remember Sheffield when you have the yummy Jelly Babies. :)

The Goldsmith family drive us home after the visit. It was a nice day out. A nice talk and experience to Sheffield, and the local family. Thanks to Goldsmith family.

the living room...with books & cds...

lovely books ;P

and, some cactus to make the house warm

Mr. Policeman

I took this from my mate's room. I claimed that the cute little thingy does not suit him and should not belongs to him. And so, the Mr. Policeman is with me now, staying happy and cheers on my study desk.

Mr. Policeman

It is not to be missed out that, the reasons of its name. This is given to him during orientation day by a policeman. And, it carries a note...Student life is fun. Enjoy it safely. DON'T DRINK TOO MUCH...nice phrase? nice reminder? Well, it is not a reminder for me, but for my mates :P you know who you are..XOXO

Mr. Policeman notes...

Isle of Sky

Scotland

Isle of Sky @ 250809

Our next stop is Isle of Sky, the most northerly island in Scotland. We reached Isle of Sky at 9.15pm, a bit later than our checked-in time, but we did manage to get the hostel room. We are lucky although we does not have fate with the dinosaur like monster. We went to bed quite early as there are not much night activities.

portree independent hostel

Again, we depart at 5am in the morning, for sunrise. It's a raining day and so, it's cold...but we are still happy, enjoying the moment with mates. We witness sunrise together...and we start our day together, it's the 3rd day of our journey.

when the sky is still dark

sun rise-ing

it's another day :)

i am the photographer, but who features in the photo?

I never realised that this is one of the attractions in Isle of Sky until I came back to Sheffield. There are three famous water fall in Isle of Sky, and I thought I never witness any of it. In fact, I did. :) Thanks my friend for your information.

the waterfall...

Loch Ness

Scotland

Loch Ness @ 240809

The next stop of the day is Loch Ness. There are few attractions but we do not spend a lots of time here due to the tight journey. This is what happen when we have limited resources ie money and time. ;p

The most famous spot in Loch Ness is the brooding lake. There is a legends that a dinosaur like monster is staying in the lake. No one knows whether the real monster exist, but the ancient story spells that people who see the monster is a lucky one. So, we go there by hope of seeing a real monster. Sadly, we do not manage to see any monster, but the lake is natural and nice.

the dinosaur like monster

do you see it?

the natural lake

The next attraction is the Urquhart Castle. It is one of the Scotland's largest castle, which carries the bloofy history from 13th to 17th century. We only managed to view the castle from the carpack, but it still looks gorgeous.

Urquhart Castle

On the way to the next attraction, we stop at an unknown lake for photo shooting purpose. The scene is really nice. I miss the moment where I step on the stones, breathe in the fresh air, looking at the nice scenery, under the warm sun.

experience the nature

the blue, the white and the green...perfect combination

nice shoot...

We continue our journey to Eilean Donan Castle. It's another famous Scottish Castle, which is rated as the most beautiful castle in Scotland. We reached there in the evening. The castle looks nice under the sun. ;)

Eilean Donan Castle

a nearer look...

Flat 62...

When the sunset, it's the end of the day...and our journey to Loch Ness. But, the friendship is growing.